Transition

I was reading Zach Lind's (the drummer of Jimmy Eat World) blog and just checking out what he has been writing about. I read this post he wrote about where and how his life with Jesus walks in step with the church. Broader than that, he talks about the gap between the church and the rest of the world. I was listening to parachutes by coldplay as i read and was instantly directed to the song "High Speed". Check out the lyrics:
Can anybody fly this thing?
Before my head explodes
Or my head starts to ring
We've been living life inside a bubble
We've been living life inside a bubble
Confidence in you
Is confidence in me
Is confidence in high speed.
The reality is that i probably have grossly misinterpreted the words but so be it. They fit so well. I am in a place right now that feels so weird. Weird in a good way. When i first became a Christian I had this sort of pride about coming into a life with Jesus, but still having worldly experience. I felt as if i had some special connection to people who didn't know Jesus, because i was just there, and that i could somehow speak to them better than someone who had been a Christian their whole life. It will be nine years now in July and things are different. I still feel this desire to be that bridge between the church and the secular world but sometimes I catch myself saying things or feeling certain ways that are so far from that bridge. "Church" thoughts you know? Then i go into this sort of sub-concious battle in my head. The best way i can describe it is as if I was Donald Miller's friend that he writes about in Blue Like Jazz. He explaine how his friend felt that the best way to read the Bible was to do it while smoking and eating Chocolate. I love that! I have been growing into this place where i have just been getting so tired of the same old church thing that i never thought i would get stuck in. It's like the Coldplay song. I am in a place where i am looking for someone to grab the wheel and drive before i go crazy. I need to make sure that Church doesn't become a bubble, but that i treat it as an experience with God that will speak to people. In reading Zach Lind's blog, having friends like Jon, reading books and listening to people like Don Miller and Rob Bell, i see something new. I'll write more later but does that make sense so far?

everybody needs to hear this song.

Brian made me a CD full of good Mp3s that i kinda forgot about. I was cleaning my room and found it and popped it in and heard this Styrofoam song featuring Ben Gibbard called Couches in Alleys. It's wonderful. go to www.myspace.com/styrofoam and listen to it.

A real job.

So I'm graduating from college this May and I couldn't be happier. I am for sure going to try and be a firefighter but i know that is going to take a little while so in the meantime i decided it would be fun to test the waters a little and see what other kinds of real jobs i could get with my newly obtained degree come May. So long story short I have been poking around the Apple employment website and just put in an application to work at iTunes. How stinkin awesome would that be? We'll see what God has in store won't we?

some photos

i am going back to this area in june. I feel sort of lucky. Cait and I fly into Manchester the morning after Logan and Elisha's wedding. Kinda neat because it is our first trip together. There we will meet Brian, who left the day before and flew all by himself and slept over night in a hostile by himself. Brian amazes me. When we meet up with him we will go right away to London to Amber's flat where we will meet her and Jordan and Ryan and Alethia and Catherine and Adria. From there we will go down to France for a bit and then to Switzerland and then over through Germany all the way to Prague! Then from there back up through Germany to munich and Berlin. If i have it my way we will swing over to Amsterdam before heading back to England. When we get back to England Brian is going to split up and go up to Scotland. Cait and I have to be back in Manchester to fly out the morning of the 21st. Like i said...i really feel lucky.

this is the beginning of something i might fail.

hey so this is the start of something i might ruin. I only mean that i am not much of a writer and i am not one who normally keeps these web type things alive. I figure it might turn into something new though. We'll see.